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Being content with yourself, why is it so hard?

So the past few weeks, i've gone through alot. with my insecurites, and scaredness, i've awoken. i relize that i need to be happy with what and who i am, because i'm going to have to live with myself for the rest of my life, there's no way out of myself, i'm me, i'm not going to change it anymore. i've grown up a lot, i'm seeing what i was blinded from before, i thought i was ruined a few weeks ago, i thought i was alone, i was cut open and left for dead, at least it felt like that, but there was something that kept me trying so damn hard. like the light at the end of a tunnel. I can see now that what i did was dumb, immature, but it was me, it was a part of me i knew existed but i didn't want anyone to see, i kept that side in the dark, but now i'm letting it out to co-exist with my wall i've put up about who i am. the war is over with myself, peace is made, i'm going to stop being insecure, i'm going to be me.

 

So here's the question for all of you:

Are you honestly showing everyone your true self, or are you putting up a front that is truely not you?


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Posted on 07/23/2008 10:42 AM Visits: 30
littlemissriffraff: 07/23/2008 12:05 PM
50/50 for me im not a fake person i dont try to be someone im not but then there are sides to me that i dont like ohter people to see i suppose thats just being human really we all have things we wanna play down and things we really dont want other people to see..but its cool that your feeling so comfortable with yourself im glad for you, more people should try being themselves for a change. xoxo
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 2:01 PM
littlemissriffraff said:
50/50 for me im not a fake person i dont try to be someone im not but then there are sides to me that i dont like ohter people to see i suppose thats just being human really we all have things we wanna play down and things we really dont want other people to see..but its cool that your feeling so comfortable with yourself im glad for you, more people should try being themselves for a change. xoxo
thanks
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ohmybob: 07/23/2008 2:15 PM
I put up a front.. Depending on who I'm with is how I'll act-To a certain extent. My one friend is really wild and loud so.. I get hyped up but only half way.. Idk. I think my true self is starting to come through more.. I'm tired of pretending..

{[My internet is being effed up. Won't let me drop you a note]}
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inachan: 07/23/2008 2:16 PM
well i've been hiding the last six years. With insecurites and scaredness,suicidal thoughts and depressions. But i've decided to let it all go! That's why i'm moving in three weeks. going to start all over again, show my true self and be loved for who i really am!
Thanx for posting this journal. This journal can really help a lot of people you know^^
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 2:17 PM
ohmybob said:
I put up a front.. Depending on who I'm with is how I'll act-To a certain extent. My one friend is really wild and loud so.. I get hyped up but only half way.. Idk. I think my true self is starting to come through more.. I'm tired of pretending..{[My internet is being effed up. Won't let me drop you a note]}
Ya same here, depeding on who i'm with is how of ME i am.
well thats good that your letting your real self come through everyone should :]
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ohmybob: 07/23/2008 2:19 PM
brittanybutcher said:
ohmybob said:
I put up a front.. Depending on who I'm with is how I'll act-To a certain extent. My one friend is really wild and loud so.. I get hyped up but only half way.. Idk. I think my true self is starting to come through more.. I'm tired of pretending..{[My internet is being effed up. Won't let me drop you a note]}
Ya same here, depeding on who i'm with is how of ME i am.
well thats good that your letting your real self come through everyone should :]

Well.. I'm not to sure it's going to be pretty.. For some reason.., I'm angsty around my parent.. Anxious around anyone. And never feel generally happy.. Just in-the-moment-happy. You know? It's like.., bad X_X
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 2:26 PM
inachan said:
well i've been hiding the last six years. With insecurites and scaredness,suicidal thoughts and depressions. But i've decided to let it all go! That's why i'm moving in three weeks. going to start all over again, show my true self and be loved for who i really am! Thanx for posting this journal. This journal can really help a lot of people you know^^
Lol thats good, :]
i mean when i start over i don't move though, i'd miss people too much. :]
and thanks
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 2:27 PM
ohmybob said:

brittanybutcher said:

ohmybob said:I put up a front.. Depending on who I'm with is how I'll act-To a certain extent. My one friend is really wild and loud so.. I get hyped up but only half way.. Idk. I think my true self is starting to come through more.. I'm tired of pretending..{[My internet is being effed up. Won't let me drop you a note]}Ya same here, depeding on who i'm with is how of ME i am.well thats good that your letting your real self come through everyone should :]Well.. I'm not to sure it's going to be pretty.. For some reason.., I'm angsty around my parent.. Anxious around anyone. And never feel generally happy.. Just in-the-moment-happy. You know? It's like.., bad X_X
well i mean i'm like that sometimes too, but you can't perfect yourself unless you let yourself. so show your real self and than start making yourself who you want to be :]
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http://killingxxlights.buzznet.com: 07/23/2008 2:27 PM
That was beautiful. For the longest time I felt insecure, and actually at times I still do. But I have actually realized also "what am I doing?". I learned to accept myself, and faced the fact if I actually wanted to change something about myself, it was possible if I just worked at it.
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 2:29 PM
killingxxlights said:
That was beautiful. For the longest time I felt insecure, and actually at times I still do. But I have actually realized also "what am I doing?". I learned to accept myself, and faced the fact if I actually wanted to change something about myself, it was possible if I just worked at it.
thanks
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 2:31 PM
ohmybob said:
brittanybutcher said:

ohmybob said:brittanybutcher said:ohmybob said:I put up a front.. Depending on who I'm with is how I'll act-To a certain extent. My one friend is really wild and loud so.. I get hyped up but only half way.. Idk. I think my true self is starting to come through more.. I'm tired of pretending..{[My internet is being effed up. Won't let me drop you a note]}Ya same here, depeding on who i'm with is how of ME i am.well thats good that your letting your real self come through everyone should :]Well.. I'm not to sure it's going to be pretty.. For some reason.., I'm angsty around my parent.. Anxious around anyone. And never feel generally happy.. Just in-the-moment-happy. You know? It's like.., bad X_Xwell i mean i'm like that sometimes too, but you can't perfect yourself unless you let yourself. so show your real self and than start making yourself who you want to be :]
=] I like that..

But sometimes it hard to be yourself when you've been everyone else and nothing for so long! I've been doing alright so far.. Butt daaaaaamn. Re-inventing yourself.. Geezuss.
lol well no one said re-inventing yourself would be easy, but in the end it HIGHLY pays off :]
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ohmybob: 07/23/2008 2:35 PM
brittanybutcher said:

But sometimes it hard to be yourself when you've been everyone else and nothing for so long! I've been doing alright so far.. Butt daaaaaamn. Re-inventing yourself.. Geezuss.
lol well no one said re-inventing yourself would be easy, but in the end it HIGHLY pays off :]
Yeahh. I knoww. Thankss. =]
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 2:56 PM
ohmybob said:
brittanybutcher said:

But sometimes it hard to be yourself when you've been everyone else and nothing for so long! I've been doing alright so far.. Butt daaaaaamn. Re-inventing yourself.. Geezuss.
lol well no one said re-inventing yourself would be easy, but in the end it HIGHLY pays off :]

Yeahh. I knoww. Thankss. =]
your welcome :]
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xoxorioxoxo: 07/23/2008 4:40 PM
sumetimes im not even sure who the real me is wen everything is soo confusing nd u jus wanna kno tht ppl r gunna like u. most times i think the me is the funnny bubbly crayzee gurl most ppl kno but other times theres the me thts jus tryin to fit in w/ the ppl im around.
yet another great point so much better then sum of the other meaningless crap ppl post.
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brittanybutcher: 07/23/2008 5:36 PM
xoxorioxoxo said:
sumetimes im not even sure who the real me is wen everything is soo confusing nd u jus wanna kno tht ppl r gunna like u. most times i think the me is the funnny bubbly crayzee gurl most ppl kno but other times theres the me thts jus tryin to fit in w/ the ppl im around.
yet another great point so much better then sum of the other meaningless crap ppl post.
thankss
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